posted by tommie on Mar 14
So here I am at a little after 22:00 and just got home… We were going to have crawfish today; however, that just wasn’t meant to be because the place that was supposed to have actually good crawfish this time of year ran out – along with everywhere else that normally would have any at all. So normally I would be upset about that because I’ve been craving some good old crawfish boil for a good time now but I’m actually not feeling too bad considering everything that’s happened in the last couple of days.
On the vehicle, my mom and I are leavng in the morning for my uncle’s down in the houston area to hopefully find something within my price range (though as of right now my insurance company STILL hasn’t given me what they said they would and after calling a second time the price is lower than what they initially had totalled) but even this doesn’t aggravate me really. If I didn’t know any better I would swear I’d taken some kind of drug or had just enough to get tipsy but know I haven’t touched any substance to cause such a feeling.
Alls I can say for certainty is that at this precise moment in time I can actually find contentment in where He has put me. Though there really isn’t happiness there is still a reason to smile – sometimes it’s better to just step back and look at what you do have. Something people have been telling me for years now that I think I’m just now starting to actually realize. Who knows, it might actually help me in the long run to get through the rough times ahead. Despite all the things that went wrong today there was one thing that went right – it was a reason to smile…
I can’t say what it is or how it happens but every now and then under certain circumstances I can just smile. The entire world around us doesn’t matter and all of those negative things in life just seem to fade away – for just those few moments I can let go of everything that normally bogs me down and just be me, be a person that can just sit there in silence and smile.
It’s up to each and every one of us to find that place that we can go and to fight for it – right now I’m making my stand on what I think can make me smile regardless of the good or bad by doing the one thing that I am absolutely horrible at: being patient. For better or worse, for good and bad I’ll be here – I’ll always be Tommie. That ear to listen, shoulder to cry on, and arms to hold. I will be strong and have faith because it’s in Him that I have gotten this far and through the thick and thin of it He will lead me to where I belong.
Regardless of the outcome life isn’t where you end up but rather the journey you took to get there. Life is about the decisions we make day in and day out concerning not only ourselves, or even those that we care most deeply about, but also those that we don’t even know. So be honest. Be honest with yourself and to all those around you. If you have something that’s hurting or joy that is so overflowing it needs to burst out let it – share it with the world.
Just be you, we are all on the highway of life but each and every one of us decides when to turn off and take a little detour. For some of us that detour may be a little bit bumpy while for others it can be relatively smooth sailing the entire way it’s YOUR decision on which roads you’ll take and when you will get back on the highway and keep living life the way He wants you to. There’s happiness out there for us all – it’s our own decisions, wether selfless or selfish, that guide us there.
Be brave, be true, be proud of the you that is truly you, never change for anyone else but for what you want to change in yourself, be happy, be sad, but always know that there’s someone there for you. We can often look over the things right in front of us – even when we know it’s there sometimes we’re scared to take that leap. By heavens angels we are protected from scraping our feet against the stone: so take a step back, breathe, and trust. In the end things will turn out ok – it’s up to us and the free will He gave us to take ok and make it something more… and right now I’m here for you…
November 11th, 2009 at 11:14
Dear Tommie,
I’m writing a book about the urge we humans have to idolize and demonize other humans. Part of it is about what it’s like to be in the military, whose members (I don’t have to tell you) are often idolized AND demonized—sometimes by the same people at different times, and often by the people in whose name they’re fighting. Because these one-sided portraits are usually second-hand and often inaccurate, I want this part of the book to mostly consist of quotes from current or former servicemembers on how they see themselves and what they do. No one person’s voice will dominate, and a number of views and positions will, I hope, come through.
Milblogs are ideal for this, because you’ve already chosen to make these views and positions public. You’re already speaking for yourselves—what I want to do is bring those selves together to create a kind of chorus. I’ve been looking at a lot of military blogs and yours has stood out to me because of your honesty and your commitment to your principles. Reading your blog has been an eye-opener for me and I would like to pass that experience on.
If you choose to let me include your words, you can be as anonymous or as credited as you would like to be in my list of sources, and you can look over the parts of the project that include stuff you’ve written before I submit the book for publication. If it’s ever published, I’ll be donating my share of the profits, if any, to the Wounded Warrior Project.
If you’re interested in the project, please get in touch at heroes.monsters AT gmail DOT com. I won’t include anything without the writer’s permission. Please write to me at the above address if you’re interested, have questions or would like to see a sample piece of the book.
Thanks for writing.
Best,
Kate
February 22nd, 2010 at 11:25
Heya i got to your site by mistake when i was searching bing for something off topic here but i do have say your site is really helpful, like the theme and the content on here…so thanks for me procrastinating from my previous task, lol
February 22nd, 2010 at 13:08
Pretty interesting article. Couldn’t of written any better. Browsing this post reminds me of my old mate. He constantly kept speaking about this. I will send this post to him. Am sure he will have a good chuckle. Thanks for sharing!
June 11th, 2010 at 21:18
Great job! Nice! Keep it up!